It seems as though my writing has come to a screeching halt. I suppose I can hardly be blamed, what with exams and everything else that I'm trying to juggle at the moment. My Silver book is being written in on a daily basis, collecting snippets and titles for things I'd like to have a go at in the future.
I thought I'd lost my Lion Pendant earlier. Anyone who knows me, also knows that I never, ever take the thing off if I can help it. (Even when Re-Enacting). I found it of course, but it struck me as odd that I'd been so concerned about a lump of pewter. I realised it wasn't the item itself, but what it stood for that I was in a panic to find. It's one of those sentimental things. It only cost £2.50 from Twycross Zoo, but it means a lot to me.
I'm in one of those moods. Where I know I ought to be energised and happy, but in fairness I feel a little bit twitchy and down. I think I’m experiencing a little bit of doubt about this Friday, when I’m meeting up with Jon. That’s natural, right? Especially with the fact that we lasted about two months last time. I’m aware that I like him. Quite a bit. Which I’m not used to and I don’t think I like, at all.
I was chatting to a good friend of mine today, who told me that I'm the type of person it's very easy to love, or fall in love with. That made me pause. What is it? What is it about me that people are drawn to? I'm loyal, easygoing and I enjoy making people smile...but there has to be another reason than that. I also ramble, though I daresay, Dear Reader, you already knew that.
My exam is in two days, and I can't focus myself. I've not been able to sit down for more than half an hour at a time and go through my notes. For some reason this evening I've not been able to stop trembling.
I have no idea why.