Fact of life #19 - When you make your bed...instead of lying in it you could just sleep on the sofa, but no-one ever tells you that option.
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So it's the 9th of January and this is my first blog of the year. Is there any particular reason for that? I'm not sure. I mean, I've been busy just recently what with family stuffs, keeping up with Internet things and moving back to Uni (and subsequently revising for my exam on Monday), but nothing that should have prevented me for writing a paragraph or so in this thing for so long.
So after nine days of silence I could talk about my shopping trip to McArthur Glen with my auntie or nana, or I could always talk about the kick-ass stirfry I made this evening for Hannah and myself...or even of the fact that Martin Klimes liked my edit of the 'Feat Writing 101' and wants me to carry on working for him.
I sure as hell don't want to talk about the aches and pains I've been having, or the fact that in any one day I have to backspace a thousand times in order to correct a word that I've just mistyped. Don't really want to talk about my fear of not passing this year at Uni...or of the fact that I now know why I have some of the complexes I do...because hey, there's blame in those things somewhere, and the first blog of the year ought to be all positive...right?
As strange as it sounds, I wish I were in my late twenties already. When people are a little more sincere with you and you're in a job that you know how to do...I want the house with the reading room and the cat. I want the steady job, regardless of how much it pays. I want to be able to go to the theatre and just hang out and go to entirely pretentious coffee places with my friends. I want my best friend living just down the street (hey, I'm a realist, house-sharing would drive said friend absolutely nuts...so I'm going to go with the second best option). I've let myself begin to want these things and I'm terrified that it's not going to happen.
I am not an emotional creature. I do not let my emotions rule my head. Ever. Despite my optimism I work with logic and efficiency. But I've started to find myself wanting.
Despite all that, I know that this year has the potential to be the best yet. All I need to do is figure out exactly what I want. And get it. Yes...it is exactly that simple.
