Amy was in the newspaper today. Front page of the Telegraph. It's strange, but now I realise how much the funeral seemed to simply be a sleepwalk. Strangely this article made it all the more...real. I'm twenty years old. I should not have to have been to the funeral of a close friend. It's just...shit. I'm finding it difficult to be too reflective on it, though. The circumstances may have been awful, but death is just a part of life...however talented and genuinely nice and sincere she was. I have no qualms in saying that she was a much nicer person than I'll probably ever be.
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So, the Tal'Vorn Beta is more or less done. Huzzah! It's taken Josh and I long enough, but I think it's worth it. We'll just have to see how the actual gameplay moves along, I think. As long as I actually settle down and get some Uni work done, I ought to be able to attend both gaming weekends next month. I'll certainly do my level best to attend one of them, anyway. As to which ones I'm not sure...but I do rather miss the Savage Worlds - Zombie apocalypse game that I was in.
Talking about completion, after more than three years I've finally done the first edit of 'The House that Satan Built'. It's been printed out, and I plan to take a red pen to it eventually to catch things I missed whilst I was simply typing. There's also one or two new chapters that need to be written, and the description needs to be fiddled with. (In that, there's barely any in the book at the moment). I was thinking of reading it aloud and making an Audio thing for dad's next Christmas present. He loves reading, but he can't really concentrate all that well these days, so having it read aloud in the background might be a nice alternative for him.
I met up with Graham yesterday evening, which was nice. Although throughout the evening, my mind kept on going back to Connect 4 strategies, which probably made me seem even stranger than usual.
It isn't easy, thinking up ways to - for want of a better term at 2am in the morning - 'spend time' with someone when they're simply online. I've been getting the feeling that Saki and I are sort of...drifting at a stable distance just recently, and as much as I appreciate that the two of us are impossibly busy with RL issues these days, something as simple as playing a couple of games of Connect 4 and watching Grey's in synch really made my day past anything else that happened yesterday. I just don't want to seem as though I'm trying too hard to make conversation all the time. No matter, I suppose.
I've already demanded a Connect 4 rematch, since I was beaten twice in a row. And this must obviously be remedied.
